So I know I'm a little late with the new year post, but I've been a little slow on the uptake with everything lately...
Anyway, I've been in a little bit of a funk the last couple of weeks, and I haven't actually sewn anything in a while. The holidays were pretty tough to take this year. This was the first Christmas since my Mom died, and the whole family was feeling her absence very acutely. My family is pretty close, and it was definitely a blessing that we were all able to be together to support each other, but there was (and is) definitely a gaping hole in all of our lives.
2012 was definitely the worst year of my life. I feel like I've been on auto-pilot for months... You know when you're driving sometimes and all of a sudden you realize you're two blocks from home and don't remember how you got there? That's how 2012 was for me. I look around and see friends who have had babies and changed jobs and bought houses, and it makes me realize how much time has passed since I've been "checked out" of life.
I want 2013 to be different. I want to wake up and live more intentionally. I'm looking forward to more good days than bad, and reconnecting with what is going on around me.
I want to grow into the "new normal", and I want to be able to revel in the memories of my Mom without being thrown into a tailspin.
And it wouldn't hurt if I spent some time in the sewing room... ;-)
I'm sorry 2012 was so sorrowful for you. The holidays without a loved one...truly saddening. I'm sorry for the kiss of your mom but glad to hear you and the rest of your family are close, it helps that there are others to understand, I know.
ReplyDeleteI hope the following year is much better for you. I really enjoy your blog.
I hope you continue to post about projects, both sewing and house related!
I know it might seem silly, but I thought of you over the holidays in your silence. I hope each new day continues to heal you rather than harden you.--SonJa
Here's to a better year. I'm sorry 2012 was terrible. *hugs*
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